Mississippi "Ex" finally got power back and the experience only confirmed for her that she needs to move. While I want her here, I'm not willing to provide the landing pad she needs while looking for work etc. (because I'm afraid it would lead to her and her kid living here permanently, and not having kids in my house has made my life infinitely better). She's also not comfortable with how out I am and I think there would be pressure for me to hide some or all of my relationships, which is an absolute no-go.
She was upset by what she views as my unwillingness to commit, which is fair, and I think this led to her being an actual ex again. We had a connection I hadn't felt since 2013, which is why I've held on even though there are massive logistical barriers. But I have gotten the sense that my presence in her life has held her back from making good long-term decisions and hope this lets her.
(Silver lining: this may mean I never have to watch Bridgerton again! We watched a few episodes earlier this week and it was a painfully stupid Cinderella theme. Romance media has never been my thing but I was finding the marriage market (Bridgerton's entire thing) especially gross after observing how the parents of my son's ex were basically trying to sell her off.)
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